dear diary,
Wednesday, August 24
Hay finormat na naman ni kuya tong computer, ayan tuloy di ako makalaro ng NFS. Bigla kong nagustuhan simula ng laruin ko to kahapon eh. Matagal ko ng nakikita si kuya naglalaro neto, pero dedma lang ako. Di naman talaga ko mahilig sa games, pero inenjoy ko talaga to. Career! Pinagtyagaan kong makipag-car race para lang magkapera tapos malagyan ko yung bago kong car ng accessories. Look at oh, girl na girl noh? Ako nagdesign nyan! Haha.... (sensya gabi eh, kaya madilim)
Eto pa, ganda ng design.... but this is not mine.
7:49 PM
the scent still lingers
Sunday, August 21
na ipost tong mga pics na to, natuwa kasi ako habang nagbro-browse.
That dinner was taken in Tokyo-tokyo Shangri-la. Syempre nag gather kami neto para pag-usapan ang matagal na naming plano na magpunta sa baguio. We close the deal that night and everything was set to what we planned. Pero unfortunately, nature stopped us to go there. Nagkalandslide kasi nun sa Kennon Rd. kaya di kami natuloy.
Sa eastwood yan, nice place to take a pic noh? Parang class picture ang dating noh? Actually, those groups of people are those who passed the final judgement. It simply means, we are the newly hired employees of ARC then. Ang ilang araw na training namin, nagbunga din sa wakas. Even though we’ve known each other with just a small span of time, were very very close, as if magkakakilala na kami decade ago. Parang isang buong tropa kami. Well, all I can say…”I really missed you guys.”
This was taken in the pantry. Saturday morning, malapit na uwian nyan kaya yung mga chairs sa likod, pinatong na sa table. Syempre nagsama kami ni cese na picture addict, kaya kahit san magpunta, picture ng picture. Meron pa nga sa CR eh at kung saan saan pa, kaya lang I’ve lost some copy of those pics when our computer was formatted. Ganda ba kuha naming dito? Oh diba pareho pa kaming my raffles ang damit tsaka white color. During that time, masayang masaya kami nyan being a call center agent and sa mga bonding ng co-employees namin.
Eto kami ni chel, nag-eenjoy sa aming petics moment. Ninenok ko yung celphone ni dimple para magpicturan kami ni chel. Syempre hindi makaangal si dimple kasi nakalog-in sya at may kausap na client na. Hehe! Kaya wala ng sabi-sabi. Ganda ng background noh, with matching fading colors! Parang nasa studio. Si chel kasama ko yan thru thick and thin, lagi kaming magkasama ng campaign eh. At binabato kami kahit sang campaign, iba na daw kasi pag flexible. Syempre think positive.
Left to right: Me, Jael, Mj, Karen & Chel. Nasa Rockwell kami nyan. Nakakahiya mang aminin pero bulong ko nalang ha..”First time ko pong makapunta dyan non”. If I was not mistaken, noong January this year yan. Galing kong kumuha ng pic noh? Swak lahat. After how many tries ni chel na magkasya kami sa screen, I volunteered myself na ako nalang kukuha, syempre skills ko yan eh. Yun nga lang medyo my space pa sa gilid, pero ok na. Grabe ang pagod namin sa pag-aaply nyan ha. Galing kami ng ayala hanggang sa nakarating kami ng Rockwell. Nagtaxi nalang kami.
Resigned na kami nyan nina Mj and Dimple. Sa right pic, kami yan ni Mj, sa left pic naman kami ni Dimple. Tapos na exit interview namin, tsaka kinuha nalang namin yung tax refund. Kaya tambay girls na kami after that. Sarap talaga ng tulog sa gabi. Ang namimiss ko lang eh yung mga matitinong kano na sinasabi sa kin “Oh, you sounds like British or Mexican.” Hehe!
At tinamad na ko sa bahay na nakatambay lang, kaya humanap ako ng bagong work. Dun ko nameet sina Bash, sa left, si Lorj sa right. Kami ni Bash parehong teller ang inaaplayan, si Lorj, accounting asst. Pareho naman kaming graduate ni Lorj ng accountancy, pero pinili ko ang teller even though ang first offer sa kin eh accounting clerk tapos maaassigned pa sa head office. Yan ang malaki kong pinagsisihan. Grrr!!!
Sila naman ang naging friends ko during 1week of training, si Ana, Calai and Tin. Bakit ganyan itsura namin? Kasi naman tong si Ana eh, nanginginig habang nagpipicture kaya antagal bago na center. Hehe! Grabe ang kukulit netong mga to, sarap kasama. Pinakamadaldal si Ana, accountancy grad din kasi kaya baliw. Kaming tatlo nina Calai and Tin, new accounts teller ang position, si Ana, accounting assistant. Tindi namin nyan, kasi may speaker sa likod pero kami dedma, walang pakialam basta magpicture. Hehe!
Eto si Charlene, same barangay pa kami nyan. Kasabay ko sya nung nag-aaply palang. Tapos naging magfriends kami nung training na, kasi lagi kami nyan magkasama. Same batch pa, pakners kami neto eh. Naalala ko tuloy noong “personality development” namin, sabi ng speaker, ipakilala daw namin ang aming pakner sa harap ng iba, tapos sabihin mo kung anong magandang asset ng pakner mo. Hirap na hirap kami nun eh. Liabilities kasi meron, walang asset. Hehe! Sabi ng mga kasama ko kamukha nya si Rochelle ng sexbomb, wat d’yo think?
Eto pa rin ang magugulong tropa. Nag-o-OJT na kami nyan sa branch. Tapos nagkaroon kami ng counterfeit seminar, so naggather na naman ang magugulong newly hired ng banco. After seminar nagkayayaan na magpunta sa Galleria. Ayun, stroll tapos matinding chikahan na ang naganap. Btw, sarap talaga ng meal namin during seminar. Biruin nyo, tamang-tama di ako nag-agahan, before nagstart kainan muna. Tapos sarap ng lunch, then before umuwi kain na naman. Diko na nga naubos eh. Approve talaga, feeling special employee kami.
This is Van, kasama ko sa branch. Co-trainee ko rin, nauna lang ako ng 1 week mahigit sa kanya. Magaling na singer yan. Lumabas na rin sya sa tv, kaya baka familiar sya senyo. Kasali sya sa top 100 Star in a Million. Sayang at mas priority nila before ang teenagers kaya di na sya nakalayo pa. Magaling to, kahit pahapyaw ko lang narinig kumanta yan. Bawal kasi sa banco eh. Nasa bahay nila ako nyan around 7pm na papunta kaming Megamall to watch “If Only” movie. Inabutan na tuloy namin yung last full show, kaya sobrang gabi na namin nakauwi. Yan kami parang mumo, ang dilim sa loob eh. Tapos pinicturan ko din yung big screen. Galing noh, sakto na yan yung poster nila.
6:16 PM
the scent still lingers
Friday, August 19
Badtrip naman tong shoutbox ko. Hindi naman gumagana. Hmmp!!!
7:47 PM
the scent still lingers
Eto yung bagong mtv ng backstreet. Hehe! Baduy nila dyan. Mga die hard fans sila ng sprynkster (ewan ko kung tama spelling) eh sila din naman un. Basta ang cool, kakaiba kasi yung mtv. Sana makita ko na to sa tv. Ang labo kasi sa internet, jologs kasi isp dial-up! haha!
Tapos dito sa baba, yan yung concert nila... Ganda noh?
5:13 PM
the scent still lingers
YESterday...
Ang plano ko, maaga palang ay aalis nako papunta sa head office namin. Pero syempre, tinamad ako bumangon ng maaga...kaya alas diyes na tsaka lang ako nakaligo, tapos kumain. Eto ang nakakainis na part...simula 10:30 hanggang 12:00 ang ginawa ko lang eh mamili ng susuotin. Syempre dapat pormal ang bihis ng sa ganun eh medyo makabog ko naman sila, ibig kong sabihin eh mapansin ako at i-entertain. Kasi they-judge-a-person-by-the-way-he/she-looks. Pag presentable ka, uunahin ka.
1:30pm, nakaalis nako ng bahay. ***i admit...long time of preparation*** 2:00 nakarating nako. Syempre di ko lam sino ba ang makakatulong sakin dun. So tulad ng ginawa sa kin sa telepono, itinrasfer na naman ako. Pero in fairness, 3 persons lang. At ang finale eh ang head na ng HR.
Kinuwento ko sa kanya ang buong storya. At buti nalang eh pinakinggan nya ko. Hindi naman ako nagtagal dun. Akala ko nga eh maghihintay pako ng matagal para lang malaman ang advise nila. Pero syempre, nakapormal ang lola kaya mabilis lang. *ewan ko basta ganun ang pananaw ko eh*
Tinawag ako ng head at kinausap ng mahinahon. Sabi nya wala na nga kong chance for permanency kung itutuloy ko pa, kaya ang mabuting paraan nalang para hindi masira ang record ko ay ang magresign then re-apply. *Sumakit lalo ang ulo ko!*
TOday...
Dapat ngayon ako pupunta ng branch para mag-file ng resignation. Kaso tinamad nako umalis kasi napagod ang binti ko sa lakad ko kahapon. So, sa monday nalang.
Hindi ko na nga pala tinuloy yung last therapy ko....Bakit? Basta! Hehe! Sayang diko na makikita yung cute na guy dun sa rehab. **haha!**
3:10 PM
the scent still lingers
Wednesday, August 17
B-W-U-S-I-T na dial-up to…. Aaaaa-nnnn-gggg BBBB-AAAA-GGGG-AAAA-LLLL!!!! Sinubukan kong magdownload ng video ng backstreet boys entitled -->Just want you to know (oh mga anti-bsb dyan, tsupee!!! Diko kelangan ng angas nyo! Bugbugin ko kayo eh!!! Har-har!) Anyway, badtrip talaga ang dial-up pag ganitong magdodownload ka eh, kelangan ng matinding patience! Yun pa naman ang wala ako! Tang-***!!! Pero kahit na bawat segundo eh pause ng pause medyo napanood ko naman kahit papano yung video…80’s na 80’s, kung hindi ako nagkakamali…May 13, 1985 yung date kunwari ng tinape yun! Ang baduy ni nick! Kadiri…kunwaring punkista noong araw! Yuckie pa…kasi habang ininterview sya eh nangungulangot pa. Hahaha!!! KADIRI…Pero loves pa rin kita NICK. Hehe! Super cool ng mtv….eto na ata ang pinakabaduy na mtv nila (oo cool na baduy…carry mo na yun) pero it really rocks my NOSE!!! Haha…with matching funky hairstyles and super baduy outfits….grabe …its feels like saying “Tenk-GOD –aym-nat-in-da-80’s”.
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Syangapala, (siryus nato) nakapagdesisyon nako. ****Hingang malalim**** Kaninang paggising ko, alam kong buo na ang pasya ko. Ilang araw ko ring tinimbang ang mga factors sa paggawa ko ng desisyon. At naisip ko, ngayon na ang tamang araw para iparating sa aking boss ang desisyon ko na makakapagpabago sa aking buhay.
Bago ko inangat ang telepono, nagdasal muna ako, tapos hinga ng malalim. Humigit ng lakas ng loob para masabi ko lahat ng gusto kong sabihin sa boss ko. Ayan na…diko alam bakit ako kinakabahan habang nagdidial ako sa telepono. 5-3-2-*-*-*….isang numero nalang, diko pa mapindot. Marahil di pa buo isip ko, diko alam kung hanggang ngayon nagdadalawang-isip pa rin ako. Pero kelangan ko ng magdesisyon…..8…sa wakas napindot ko rin…***Tooot----tooot----tooot***….Aahhh LECHE!!!! Busy ang linya ng telepono! ...Ilang minuto pa, nagkaroon ulet ako ng lakas ng loob hanggang sa makausap ko na ang boss ko. “…Ma’am pasensya napo, naisip ko pong huminto na muna sa trabaho ko….” (Sa wakas nasabi ko rin, at naintindihan naman ako ni boss) “…Sige pagaling ka…” ika nya.
Kinahapunan… parang may pumukol sa utak ko. At sinabing T-A-N-G-A bakit ka aalis? Ang daming hirap ang pinagdaanan mo para makapasok dyan, tapos aalis ka nalang bigla?....Kaya, nagulantang ako….napaisip…at maya-maya’y nasabing “Oh shheeettt!!! Ay-nid-to-seyb-my-packing-dyab!!!”
Naisip kong tumawag sa HR namin, ang kaso sawang-sawa nako sa salitang “Ah-okey,-dats-on-anader-department-hold-on,-ayl-transper-yu”. Matapos mong ikwento ang buong problema mo, hindi pala sya ang makakatulong sayo! Tapos paglipat sa ibang linya, kwento na naman, tapos transfer na naman, kwento…transfer….nakakasawa na!!! Kaya bukas na bukas din, kahit iika-ika na ang lakad ko, gigimbalahin ko ang Head Office namin. Buo na ang pasya ko! Kelangan ko ng tulong nila para makapagdesisyon ako nang mabuti. Sana hindi pa huli ang lahat!
---Naku dyudit, ano na nman bang ginawa mo????---
1:47 PM
the scent still lingers
Sunday, August 14
Yesterday, saturday, I went to the rehabilitation medical again for my second therapy together with my mom. ***Shoot! I forgot to take a picture, so I could show it to my boss, and she'll completely understand what Im goin' through right now. Hoping I won't forget it the next time.*** Anyway, my therapist do the same thing again. And I'll be back for my next session on wednesday and have my check-up at once to see the result of my x-ray, and if I had an improvements taking those medicine.
The worst scenario here is when the time come that I had to force myself to drink the "pinakuluang dahon ng sambo" everyday. So gross especially the smell that you can taste after you burp! Soooo disgusting! But I have to do it everyday. **tounge out**
After attending the mass at St. Joseph parish church, I decided to buy a newspaper, makatingin na rin sa classified adds kasi baka pagpasok ko eh wala na kong trabahong babalikan. Sa sobrang dami ba naman ng mga absences ko eh.
By the way, it's just now that I can post my cel set. Wala lang...share ko lang 'tong mga pics na to!
5:43 PM
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This is our new humble home... Its very colorful...my mother and I agreed regarding the combinations of colours. Our floor is dark blue, our wall inside is peach, while outside is pink, the corners are orange, our comfort room is pink, kitchen cabinet is maroon that matches our dining chairs, and lastly our sink to kitchen is green. We love all the colours! It's kinda little though but staying here feels relaxing.
3:33 PM
the scent still lingers
Friday, August 12
I'm stucked again here in our house. My leg felt terribly painful. After 5 days of rest, I thought I'm beginning to recover. But I was sorry cos its still hurt, and even worst. Now, my doctor recommended me a week rest, means a week leave too from work. OMG, I'm still in my probationary period, so as much as possible I have to lessen my absences and tardiness, but then instances won't allow. So now I'm not hoping to gain my permanency on my work anymore. Goodbye bonuses, goodbye 13th-14th month pay, goodbye mid-year bonus, goodbye allowances, and goodbye to other benefits. Hu-Hu (T_T)Anyways, on the other side I'm happy I can have a rest after those stressful days. Yep! very stressful, due to those clients who act as if they were VIPs.
By the way, I'm now working in a bank as a teller. I'm supposed to be turning 2 months employed in that bank this coming 16, while turning 2 months this 27 in the branch. I am assigned at Boni, way too far from my home here in Pasig. That's so far cos were almost near at Marikina.My calf started to have cramps when I began working in a branch. This is because of that stupid heels! We are required to wear shoes that should have at least 1 1/2 inches heels. Actually I'm not used of wearing heels everyday. I'm most comfortable wearing flat shoes, flip-flops and rubber shoes. So, I think, that made my calf muscle to contract so painful. Right now, I'm taking a medicine which has higher dose than mefenamic acid, but it's also a pain reliver.
Last week, Wednesday, I decided to have a sick leave because I can't take the pain anymore. I went to the doctor for a check-up. He prescribed me a mefenamic acid to be taken 3 times a day after meal. He also ask me to take 2 days more rest. And so beginning wednesday till friday I was absent on my work. I took the medicine for 5days that last untill sunday. I thought I'm beginning to feel good until monday came, I already stopped the medicine, I came back to work, when later afternoon I felt the sudden pain again, becoming worst and worst that I had to take the medicine again. And so by tuesday, I still depend on the medicine to be able to walk. Later afternoon, I still felt the pain and so I took the pain reliever again. At night, even though it felt so bad, I tried not to take it anymore untill I became asleep. Wednesday morning, just got up, I was crying going downstairs to the comfort room, supposedly to take a bath. But I can't hardly step down. This is ultimately the worst moment, and so I decided not to come to work. Later that morning, went to the hospital to have a check-up again, this time another physician attended me. He ask me to take 1 week rest, 3 sessions of therapy and a high dose of medicine for a week. He said if there's still no improvement, I'll undergo the biopsy. OMG! That sounds scary!
Wednesday, after the check-up, I took the leg x-ray. Thursday, I got a schedule for my 1st therapy. They placed over my leg some aparatus. There's a lot of cords, it felts like grounds going through my veins, making my muscle to contract. On the top of that cords, they placed a hot compress. It was like a big towel. It felt sooo gooooood! 2nd step was the massage using the machine somewhat like an ultrasound. The therapist just rubbing around making a circular motion over my calf. Then the last step was a typical hand massage. He sprinkled some powder on my leg then he started to massage it, and that was so relaxing, makes me feel like I can't wait for my 2nd session.
3:28 PM
the scent still lingers
Sunday, August 7
Aaaaaahhh....sakit ng tiyan ko! Kasi naman kung hindi ako nagpuyat edi tulog sana ako ngayon at di ko na to nafefeel. Ayan, magsisimba pako bukas. I need to wake up early. Sarap matulog ang lakas ng ulan.
3:03 AM
the scent still lingers
Friday, August 5
After a long months, ayan my work nako. Sa banco as a teller. Ngayon absent ako, kasi naman eh, tumatanda na ata. Kelangang magpahinga para makalakad naman ako. Masakit kasi muscle sa binti ko. Ngayon, 3 days nakong absent. Haha! Sa monday papasok nako.Gusto ko na talagang bumili ng USB para sa cel ko! WaaaaaHhhhh!!!!
4:13 PM
the scent still lingers