Saturday, January 15
Nothin' much from me today.
Well...well...why???
I'm not at work tonight it's because I filed a leave for a week starting Monday. But unfortunately, 3 days only had been approved so meaning it will last on wednesday and have to call at the office every night for an update. Actually, I'm preparing to resign so I'll make this week for me to think and to look forward on applying for different job.
Gosh, can't believe I already wasted 1 day doing nonsense. Now, every single moment is too important for me. I should think harder cos now at my age I should have done a lot and see myself having a stable job. I don't wanna be someone who idolized "Juan Tamad".
Where will I start?
What shall I do?
Where shall I go?
...These are the question comes to my mind to start a new beginning.
Will I be successful?
Will I achieve my dreams?
Will I survive the every trial and hardship?
...These are my anxieties. I really worry every step I take.
Is it right if I do this and if I do that?
My only concern is my future and my family's future...but of course it comes to me first. How will I provide them prosperity when me myself not prepared, not set up and having no self-esteem?
How I wish I am more confident and more determine to attain all my aspiration and
how I wish I really know what I want to be and where I want to go...